Twinklie’s World

好马不吃回头草！Is that really the case ?

Donkey years ago … During my schooling days, a bunch of us is having fun at the Toa Payoh Garden Playground when I commented : 好马不吃回头草！(can’t really remember why I say that)

Suddenly, an auntie (路人甲）walked past and responded with an intelligent perspective.

哪边的草儿好吃就吃哪边！Isn’t that very true ?

Wow ! It’s wisdom vs 岁月。。。

Many a times, we are at the cross road and can’t make up our mind which path to take. If we just take some time to ponder but not analyse, maybe, it will be an easier decision. It’s very true that our thinkings and mind became more complicated as we mature. Sometimes, we don’t even speak our minds as we have to look at the bigger pictures. Haaaa …

Sing: 假惺惺，假惺惺！做人何必假惺惺？

So, the moral of the story … Nothing is constant in this world. There’s also no absolute right and wrong. It’s just different perspectives. Once, we acknowledge that, we will be able to think "Out of the box" and see beyond the norm.

Quoting what 邓小平 says:

黑猫白猫，会catch老鼠的猫，就是好猫！

Auntie Lian says:

好人坏人，会做人的人，就是圆滑的好人！

Haaaa …

Mid-Life Crisis ??? OMG !!!

I’m having one of my those regular dinner dates with my intelligent niece.

Bingo !!! Suddenly, I felt that I may be in mid-life crisis … No worries … It’s not life and death issue. It’s just kinda of a reflection phrase of my present life. Sometimes, we are all so busy with our daily committment that we have no time to stop & think of our life … Life becomes so routine and we kinda let it be …

In a blink of eyes, gone were the days when we are in our 20s and have all the zest, dreams & goals. During my 20s, I dare not say that I’m an adventurous personality but I love challeanges and ain’t afraid to fail a dream and build another one. We change from time to time and we seldom lament on decisions that we made. It’s not that we ain’t sensible. It’s just whatever mistakes that we make. We take it as a learning curve. We may stumble & fall and in no time, we are up again to ride the waves.

In retrospect, when I hit my 30s … I have gained more confidence but ain’t so daring … It’s no longer the "attack" mode. It’s the "defence" mode. You maintain your dreams & goals … You are in your comfort zone and maybe choose to maintain it that way. We follow the norm …

But, then again … I start to wonder if it’s the kind of lifestyle that I desire in the 1st place. Did I lost myself in the midst of the rat race ? The burning questions : Is that what I really want ???

Happiness is getting what you want!

Joy is wanting what you get!

Clubbing … Those were the days … Just went partying on ladies nite … It’s really happening … It feels great to let our hair down … Be it wine, beer or vodka lime … It just get you into the the party & dancing mood !

Gone were the days when "smoke gets into your eyes" and you smell like a walking cigarette after clubbing …

I’m never a party animal but I kinda understand why some people luv to go clubbing … It’s a place where people chill out and have fun … No restrictions … You can drink & dance till you drop …

Life is about having fun !!!

Houseflies … Bumming around all day … That’s my recent lifestyle … Well … I’m in the midst of a career change. It’s really wonderful to wake up as you like & plan your daily activities … No deadlines to meet or tons of workload to clear. You’re on leave everyday. Haaaa … Freedom …

But, it really starts to get boring at times cos I’m not a full-time housewife. I have no kids to look after, no routines household chores … So, it’s also a challenge to kill time. I start to realise that TV prog really sucks during the afternoon slot … It’s a blessing that I hv lots of nice VCD. Life is such a irony … When I’m at work, I use to lament that I hope that I can hv a afternoon nap after lunch. (Esp during rainy days). But, when you’re home … afternoon nap is never on my mind … Haaaa

I guess "Balance" is what we seek in our lifestyle.

Haaaa … tt’s the nickname that I gave myself cos I really look like one. I start to wonder if I have used up all my happy energy thus nowdays can hardly smile. Life is so bitter !!! Sigh …

My motto : Happiness is a daily decision ! seems to lost it power … Alamak !!! I must go for a brain wash session to get rid of my negative thoughts about recent happenings … Must be cheerful & be a lovely sunflower !!!

Winter is over & Spring is finally here !!! Buck up !!!!

Well … Let’s start by being positive … Despite my lousy & down, dull, blue aka purple then black black days for the past 1mth plus …

The good news is that I’m surrounded by really nice friends & colleagues … They are so supportive & understanding of my dramatic mood swing & even "kena sai" face … Special thanks to my dear colleagues at work … They are taking my extra work load due to my MC. In fact, If there’s a billboard for Master Card (my description). I defintely deserve to get a "Gold". Haaaaa …

Must really elaborate to get my point across … It all started in early Nov … It’s so happen that I’ve got flu and blah blah … But, what really bother me is that I got repeat telecast almost every month … I have to take MC for at least 2 days. The worst thing is that despite all the beauty sleep that I have … I’m so tired and feel like shit … One start to wonder if there’s really something wrong with my 32 years old engine … Haaaa … Bodyache lah … headache and so so on … It’s such a lousy feeling …

Anyway, being a super kan si character. I finally decided that I hv to see our co. doctor and hopefully she can refer me for a thorough check-up. But, the irony is that I’m actually ask to see another doctor as I’ve history of panic disorder (another long story) E.g Getting nervous out of blue. Btw, it’s very common and if anyone needs information on it. Feel free to approach me cos I really read up alot on it. Haaaaa …. Btw, they concluded that I have panic disorder & may have mild depression lah … What the heck !!! Hopefully, it will go away soon cos it really sucks …

Enough of my grumbling … I decided to take charge of my life and stay damn shit positive & happy. It’s year 2008 … Let’s make a fresh start !!! If i happen to wake up and feel lousy, go back to sleep & wake up from another side of the bed … If I still don’t feel good, go straight to the loo and flush down the nonsense. Heeeeee ….

Ganbatte !!!!

Happiness is a daily decision !!!

Is it the weather or it’s me … Just came back from my Taipei trip … Didn’t hv any post-holiday happiness ~ sigh … Holiday always does wonders for me …But, this time round, fall sick due to the coldness & simply didn’t really njoy the trip. Expectations too high … Most of my friends commented that there’s really delicious food & nice shopping … But, I guess views differ … But, I must compliment on the good transportation system. It’s really easy & comprehensive. Their MRT & trains are plus pts for Free & Easy trip. Being a Spring person, the weather during this time of the year is cold … Temperature changes from time to time … It’s especially chilly at night … Day is short, night fall at ard 5pm … We even have a minor episode. Yes, we experienced Earth Quake during our farm stay in Yilan. We felt the beds shaking during our sleep. It’s ard 5.15am … If not for the local news, I will probably dismissed it as a dream cos nobody felt as shaken as us. Heeee … A chit chat with the cabby made us realised that it’s really common … I guess we are fortunate to be born in a tropical island like S’pore. Yes, sometimes, it’s really humid & hot but we are seldom at the mercy of harsh weather conditions. It’s a blessings.

Well … I put on weight !!!! Haaaa … It’s always this time of the year … I’m starting to believe that I use to be a piggie in my last life. (Anyway, i adore piggie) We are approaching winter therefore our piggie body have to store food mah … (It’s pure crap cos S’pore "No Winter Sonata") Recently, I’m constantly hungry and snack more often than usual … Hmmm … have supper too … Ahem … U know lah … it’s chilly at nite …. The usual lame excuses … Forget it !!! Let me just declare … I Love Food & Food Love me. We have a Love Hate relationship. Love cos it makes me really happy to enjoy all the delicious delicacy. Hate cos it start to make me look like them (Food). E.g Walking porkchop Haaaaa … Therefore, end of the day. The moral of the story is that you’re what you eat !!! Just exercise control … or sweat it out at the gym …

Ahem … b4 i began … I must declare that Auntie Lian (in case, you wonder. Aoi Lian aka ah lian is my dialect name) hv came to a stage of my life that I no longer feel pai say to declare my age. FYI, 32 years old couch potatoe who believe that life is about being yourself & getting excited when ppl challenge my EQ !!! Haaaa … Btw, recently, there are many such strange characters … In fact, I spent a certain amount of my "precious" time trying to preach to them & sometimes I hv to bring out my massager aeroplane to make my pt (U can view it in my photos) I believe that this exclusive group fly my aeroplane & make me look like a lousy pilot. Haaaa … I hate it !!! How can ??? I can’t be a SIA stewardess (too fat), at least let me be a imaginery pilot pen lah … Instead of hving the tagline " A great way to fly " Mine may be  " A great way to fail " Haaaaaaa … Nevertheless, happy to say, most of them pull up their socks after a few "nagging" sessions … I guess they can’t stand my constant nagging … I’m really good at being a broken down recorder. Like my mum, I can repeat the same thing over & over again. Ask my kakis & comrades at work & u know what I meant … Haaaa … Okay, enuff of my 3 cents view for the day … Hv to sign off liao … Getting ready to go Brighthill for Veg lunch & enlightenment … Haaaa … Hv to do it more often to stay sane  … My fa(3) hao(4) - you(1) ya(3) aka elegnant Haaaaaa …

I always believe that every individual is nice by nature. I always chose to look at the positive aspect of a an individual. But, sometimes, reality makes us realise that we shall always be grateful when we are surrounded by nice people who believe that Happiness will multiply when we share it.

I have decided to stick real close to people who bring out the Best in me. Heeee … (Like to use superglue to enforce it). They are just like shower after a drought. It brings everything to life again. Flowers will be blooming & there may be even rainbow …

Hmm … For those who love to wander in my vineyard. Let’s appreciate when the grapes are in harvest. It’s so sweet. Just enjoy & accept gracefully whatever the farmer have to offer. Leave the sour grapes aside cos there so many other delicious treats.

A happy life is just a string of happy moments. But most peope don’t allow the happy moment, because they are so busy trying to get a happy life.

*Abraham-Hicks*